It's just the way it is..

So I spent this day;
After a lot many days,
In such a way,
Which should be the way
To spend each day..
Being glad for everything
That is mine and everything which isn't..

At first I thought,
Too much of happy could mean sadness later on,,
But on second thoughts I concluded,
Too much of happy could even be wonderful..

It wasn't fair to be happy alone
But then I looked around hoping to find
*Somebody* to share the happiness with
I guess it wasn't time yet
For that *Somebody* to come
So *Nobody* had to fill in for *Somebody*

I guess it isn't fair to be alone alone too.
In the end..
Its just the way it is,isn't it?
But this isn't the way,is it?
So I tried to change that
Ultimately failure was all I got.

And then came a beautiful thought;
If holding on to it made me miserable,
And a lot..
Maybe letting go could make me happy ..
And a lot..
And so I did it.
Maybe for the better.
Maybe for worse.
I left that upon time to tell..

I wanted to laugh
Without fear of the future,
But I was scared
Of what comes next..
Yet again I was sure of,
What is meant
Would find its way..
Its just the way it is..isn't it?
It just is..

Missing YOU :'(

 That Night....
That night when you lay in the hospital bed
And I, sitting on the couch
With my glistening eyes wide open
And my brain shut down

Kept on thinking about you
You and only you
Why do bad things happen to good people?
And why only the good people who are mine?

I really wanted to be with you there
You faced all the pain, all the sickness all alone
You never ever asked me to be with you
You never demanded me to be there
You didn't even tell me about your condition
You never used your right over me

Why you did it all alone?WHY?
You felt bad.. I felt even worse...
Or rather the worst.

You never did like the way you were
But I liked YOU, the older YOU....
Why on earth you had to change?
Who told you to do so?

Yes, I didn't like it,
I didn't like the new you
I couldn't accept it
Couldn't accept somebody else in your body
You were like YOU
And now you are not YOU

Can't you please come back?
Cause I really really need YOU this time..
I know I am never going to tell you this,
But even if you come to know, I would just hope YOU would understand..
Please come back...Please..
Because,I..
I was just missing a friend,missing YOU...