The Day before my life changed....Changed my life..

When i need to escape the horrors of today
my eyes shut involuntarily
Leaving behind the lies and hypocrisy
And the frustration and insecurity
Going back in time
Jumping to that very day
When it was all okay
And it was so calm
Maybe that was the quiet before the storm..

It was the last time I remember,
When I felt like I was alive
When I thought I was blessed
When I believed it couldn't get any better
When I hoped this would always be the same

That was the day..
The day that changed my life ...
That was the day..
The day before my life changed..

That was the day..
Which I labeled as the best day of my life
Little did I know..the worst one was ready to arrive..

It seemed
My happily ever after
Ended in the blink of an eye
But that was one moment
For which people wait for lifetimes

How beautifully just one thing
Comes rushing towards us..
Hovers for a moment..
Settles..
And then that moment is gone..
Leaving your soul imprinted
With that magic spell..
That gives you that immense power
To go through it all again.

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7 billion souls living in 192 different countries of the 7 continents of one planet-Earth,searching for that one thing which gives meaning to their life.That one thing which on being fulfilled lets one's soul rest in peace..That one thing which is omnipresent but rarely presented these days..That one thing for which we wake up everyday with renewed hope and zest for life..And That one thing for which you and me and everyone craves for is..A simple for letter word. L-O-V-E.

Everyone needs it..Everyone wants it..Everyone dreams about it..Then why is it so difficult to find...when everyone of us has it within ourselves..?
We all have so much to offer to the world..so much to crave for too..Then why we don't get love when we need it the most..want it the most and are willing to give it without any measure..? It has just come to become a fancy wish which only angels grant to the luckiest people on earth..Somebody once said..

"It is the most easiest thing to love somebody...but if you are really the most luckiest person on earth..the person you love decides to love you back."

Its like all of us have built some kind of walls..Sometimes it isn't to keep others away..but maybe it is to see who cares for you so much so that they can tear those walls down.It is just for the sake of that insecurity which keeps on letting the fear of getting your heart broken keep you from opening it up to others..
Maybe you just want to be sure enough before showing your vulnerable side to others.

That feeling which you get when you know somebody's got your back..when you know that somebody will be there with you no matter what happens is itself so assuring and divine that it would rather make you more confident and tough from within..You would no longer be scared to fit in or be weird being yourself..because you know "I'm not the only one."You then start to believe in the idea that maybe dreams wont remain dreams any longer..maybe you aren't really alone in the crowded world.

I don't want people to be scared of love.I want them to accept it without doubting it..Because it only seems to knock by once..And it may be too late sometimes if you stay there thinking that It might be too good to be true.Just let them all the way in..You never know from where the next miracle might come from..

"The saddest thing man can ever face is what might have been"

So just believe in yourself and your karma. Believe that good things do happen to good people.Even your slightest efforts can change lives and influence people..So don't be afraid to be who you are..There is that somebody out there for you who'll give you more than you ever dreamed of..so don't fall short of love..Try and make other's smile..their smile might bring one on your face too..The purpose of life is fulfilled when you live a life of purpose.Believe that you matter and what you do matters..and yes it does..

{Dedicated to all those souls who have stopped believing in goodness of people and unconditional love..
And to you for inspiring me to write this}

In a world which does not exist..

In a world which does not exist..
Everyone (including me) is loved..
Nobody is shunned,
Or abandoned or hated,
Or destroyed or judged..
Just loved..
So much so that;
None (nor me) is scared
To put themselves out there,
And offer to the world;
Something more than they expect..
Everyone (including me) matters
And is cared about.
Everyone's efforts (including mine)
Are appreciated and mattered.
Nobody (nor me) feels
Left out or alone in the crowd..

In a world which does not exist..
Dreams are realities.
Tears don't exist.
Hope is guaranteed.
Peace is forever.
Trust isn't brittle.
Betrayal is found nowhere.
Smiles are everywhere.
And everyone (including me)
Is destinied for greatness..

Waiting for a ship at the airport..

When I started to love that special someone I never thought whether he would love me back or not..All I wanted to do at that time was to love him head over heels.And I did so too.I saw myself married to him 10 years down the line.I saw him as the father of our beautiful daughter.I saw myself getting old with him. I believed that he is the one for me.He is the one I'd share my first kiss. His hug would make me feel safe and loved.Even the thought of losing him would devastate me.These little dreams of mine started to associate them with nobody but him.I was attached or rather tied to those aspirations and thoughts coming true.It was the "Lets Grow Old Together" love which kept me going.My love is true..It's for real..I had never felt my heart suddenly beating faster on seeing anybody else.I had never had more butterflies than at the time he told me "You are the best girl I've ever met" I've never cried more than when he got hospitalized with the deadliest diseases and didn't even bother to tell me.He was worth my wait..though I believed he deserved someone way better than me or my love.

Little did I know I was waiting for a ship at the airport. The thought which itself shattered me became the reality.Words couldn't express my grief nor tears were enough  to pour the pain out of my heart. The dreams as well as the courage to dream again was no more.It was all over.Even today its difficult to accept this fact that in no way we could be together. There's this voice inside me which tells me there's still something left.There's still that "something magical" out there which is still there.If I were to get over him I would have done it already.But then why do my eyes get wet on remembering our times...our memories...us?
Why am I not able to imagine the same things which I used to imagine but with someone else? I don't know what it is..But all I know is that it is...
Psychology says that we never really stop loving someone.Either we still do or we never did.
I think its the first option..
Someday...maybe the airplane might land me to the ship...maybe...

Mr Stranger

Come on come on my wish granting angel,
Its been so long I've been wishing for this stranger!

Who would turn my world upside down
Who would want to see me as the bride in that wedding gown
He would be the reason I'll wake up smiling
And he would be the person who'll know it when I'm lying

Oh ,Oh ! Mr. stranger.!
Are you gonna take forever?
Oh now please can you do me a favour?
Ask me out and be a little braver.!

Be the password to my phone
Be the lyrics to my song.
Be the beat to my heart
Yeah, we could never get apart..

Come on come on my wish granting angel,
Its been so long I've been wishing for this stranger!

Who would be the one I'd go with on the prom night
Who would be someone I'll name as my Mr. Right
He would be someone I'll miss when out of sight
And he would be the one I always wanna hug tight

Its high time now,get out of my dreams
Come into my life my charming Prince.
Sweep me off my feet
Let me feel your heartbeat
When we kiss first on the backseat..

Be the reason to my smile
Be the sparkle to my eye
Be the luck to my fate
And be worth my wait...

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When i was standing in the middle of nowhere,
In the depths of despair ...
It was too late to find out that,
I had lost my way back home...

Every street i roamed and every door i knocked;
Seemed dead enough to give no response..
There was just darkness all over with every dream shattered,
Too scared to move one step forward,
Cause I knew it would land me back two steps backward...

I know,
I was supposed to be the one
To face the things I've been running from;
I was supposed to be invincible....

I know;
I was supposed to be a fighter'
I had to have that fire burning in me
Which was never meant to burn out..

But this black of night tried to convey me
Something which I didn't take pains to see...
It was only right now I could see the stars,
Which could help me find my paths
Back home...

Cant my regrets and mistakes stay forever as memories..?
Cant the incomplete stories remain as possibilities..?
I don't know why Cant one lock have multiple keys..?

I don't wanna care to be the odd one out;
Or if I don't fit in the crowd
I don't wanna care if I break down;
Or if I don't stay strong...
Cause thats not me and
Thats something which I'm never gonna be ...

I wanna believe..that its okay...
to fly a little...fall a little...
to love a little... dream a little...
Just so that I know that I lived a little...
Just so that I know I lived a little...

Second Chances....

These chances are rare to find,
Destiny is seldom so kind..
Cant afford to mess up this time
I know the mistakes were all mine...


The moment is here...
There's no room for fear..
    The feeling which I've got is queer...

This coin is now tossed;
Keeping my fingers crossed;
I don't know whats it gonna be,
But today I'm ready.

     Its not fair to give up like this...
    On someone whom i miss
    Every second and minute of the day,
   Or has it been too late for me to say...

That I've made mistakes,
Yes, I've made mistakes...
Or is it the fate which says...
Never mind...its okay...

      My heart just cant settle for it
      Because it believes in love
      And love believes in faith
      And faith in hope...

This ray is the last one...
Which helps me cope;
After this the sun will set...and the darkness will be met...
But I can certainly  bet..

     Tomorrow the sun's gonna rise again..!
     With those infinite rays will come the boundless happiness!
     Tomorrow there will be a second chance..
     And a new romance..

There will be and end to all ails..
Cause love never fails...!!