Just for once

Just for once
I want someone to look me in the eye and say that I am beautiful
Just for once
I want to have a deep meaningful conversation about things that matter
Just for once
I want to someone to hear all my stupid talks as if they are so meaningful  and actually want to hear more
Just for once
I want to share all my hopes and dreams which are never going to come true with someone
Just for once
I don't want to feel vulnerable when I get hurt or cry in front of someone
Just for once
I want to believe that I am good enough to deserve all that I have
Just for once
I want to experience the calmness of silence all around
Just for once
I want someone to understand my feelings without saying a word
Just for once
I don't want anything to worry about
Just for once
I want to be my weird self without having to think what others would think
Just for once
I want to do stuff without thinking about its consequences
Just for once
I want to be fully alive to each and every moment that passes by
Just for once
I want to laugh so hard that my stomach starts aching
Just for once
I want to spend a day doing just nothing at all
Just for once
I want to make someone's impossible wish come true
Just for once
I want to have the pleasure of doing something I fear the most
Just for once
I want to find magic in unexpected places
Just for once
I want to feel I'm complete.

Why..?

Why don't you like me?
When I like  you so much..
Why do you make me cry?
Cause I make you laugh out loud..

Why am I waiting..?
Waiting for something
Which is never going to happen..

Then why do I think..?
I think about you
Listening to every romantic song on the earth...

I never told you..
That I can't live without you
Its only that
I don't want to live without you..

Why does my heart then
Skip a beat..?
Whenever I listen
To your magical voice on phone..

Why do I
Fight with my mind to believe you're Mr. Right
When I noe
You are MY Mr. Not So Right?

Why I am just too scared..?
Just so desperate..
To tell you..
To tell you I love you..

Why do I feel restless?
When you're around me..
YOU're near ME..
YOU're with ME..

Why do I try to fix..
Your Initials in my signature..?
Why do I dream about you?
Why do I try to find out
Silly reasons to be with you..?

I don't know where I stand..
Where I am..
But you...
You are with me..
Within me..
Beside me..

Why are you just so perfect?
Why do you complete me?


I really hate it..
I hate it when you're always right..
I hate it when you make me cry..
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call..
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you..
Not even close..
Not even a little bit..
Not even at all..


I want you to want me...
I need you to need me....
I love you to love me....

Sources: some movies:)